waiting

Interesting and wonderful things are developing... in work, relationships, and personal growth. Career opportunities are opening up. I'm not sure how they'll turn out 6 month from now but things are looking good so far. I'm getting to know a few people who've been acquaintances for several years. I'm spending quality time with them but can't really project what the dynamic will be like 2 years from now... deeper... dissolved... acrimonious. I've been working with a soccer team and I actually have a repuation as being a very positive, motivational force. That's great but it surprises me. Am I gonna drop the ball at a crucial moment when the team needs a shot of inspiration? I hope not.

I'm in a space where I wish I could hit a FFWD button on Life and hit PLAY four months from now. Yeah, I'd love to ffwd to June. I'm antsy. I'm anxious. I'm apprehensive. I wish I knew how things will develop. I wish I could see into the future.

This week I was talking to a friend about a guy I'm interested in getting to know better. I wish I knew what he is (isn't) thinking about me. I wish I knew what condition his heart is in. My friend empathized and said when she felt that way about her fiance she'd talk to God about it. Sometimes God would be communicating withe her fiance about that very thing. Sometimes God would nudge her to speak to the guy instead. I remembered the junior high school days when it seemed like my best friend was the only person I could trust to tell some cute boy I liked him. It is cool that christians can trust God to tell a cute person that you like him/her. The Holy Spirit is the perfect Intercessor. How cool is that? Great in theory. Tough to practice. But it's real. The Heavenly Father and Almighty Creator is also someone we can confide in and be friends with. Strange concept alongside other deities... but true.