the real deal...postmark from the soul

God has shown me very clear intents in my last few jobs-- other than ministering to the people I work with. My last job seemed largely about DEBT CLEARANCE. The job before that was largely about FOCUS. I feel more & more like Nehemiah everyday because God puts something clear on my heart and I end up walking out so many other important lessons & tasks.

Anyway, I'm starting to see how much discipline it takes to live well in this life. Maybe I knew that but was determined to coast along. God wants me to study the 8 holy habits this winter to learn about discipline through focus on Him. Now this may seem obvious to the average village idiot but I'm slow sometimes. I realized this by relfecting on how diligent I was when administrating amateur sport (soccer) 12+ years ago. I never got sick of it. I never wanted to slack of f or cut corners. I never get tired of coaching. But I've got a long road to plough before I get to do that on the scale that I envision for my future-- as a high performance sport administrator. I'm gonna need chunks more discipline to get there. In the same way I grew good habits through doing something I love, God is trying to grow me in the next 8 months through loving Him... not as easy as soccer because I'm so inclined to choose my flesh instead.